So I’ve been through quite a range of emotions the last few days. I think I’m finally getting to acceptance, and therefore, sadness. I had to say goodbye (for now) to my two best pals Hannah and Landon today which totally sucked. Like, so bad. Worse than I was prepared for. They make me want to stay. And that’s saying a lot. They’ve totally made this experience what it is and I’m so thankful to have met them.
In two hours I’ll be on my way to the train station. My suitcase is super heavy so I’m not looking forward to lugging that around over the next 15 hours or so. I’m also not totally sure how customs work so that’s got me a bit worried as well.
I think my body knows it’s about to go through a big change. It’s falling apart similar to the way it did when I first got here. Must be stress or something. Unfortunately for my body, the next month or so is going to be full of lots of radical changes so I hope it’s ready.
Well I get to hang out at the airport for about 11 hours before my plane leaves and then! I get to sit on a plane or wait in an airport for the next 17. And then! 10 days from now I get to go on two 10 hour flights for a total travel time of like 27 hours! Golly gee wiz this is gonna suck! Oh well, makes it even more worth it when I get there.. even though I’m almost surely going to be on the verge of tears from lack of sleep, being totally overwhelmed with everything, and jet lagged. Oh la la la la! Can’t wait!
Anyway, I guess this will be the last blog I write while I’m in France.
As I suspected, it was quite the ride and I did some things and met some people that I’ll never forget. It’s hard to gauge the true impact this experience has had on me at this point, but overall I think it’s everything I could’ve hoped for. It wasn’t all glamorous and shiny like it seemed on the surface, but that’s what made it a real, personal experience. The downs make the ups even better, for sure. I’ve learned a lot about myself and I’ve changed in more ways than I probably realize.
Well, on to the next one.